And I want to thank you, for giving me the best day of my life, and oh, just to be with you, is having the best day of my life.
Not very surprisingly, Sir T made good use of my present to him this weekend. Mind you, it stung, but it looks far worse than it was. It was fairly cosy right up to the moment he placed me over his knee and applied it on my poor posterior from there. The intensity allowed me to let out most of the tension from a week’s hard work in tears, leaving me all calm and happy afterwards.
One great challenge of being a spankee is the ability to gratefully accept what is given by the spanker – be it pain or pleasure. I have a lot to learn in this area since I, like many submissives, have spent most of my life focussing on giving. Sound giving is shared joy and love. It can however also be control, distance and independence. Sound taking requires trust, humility and gratitude. It can also be expressions ruthlessness and greed. Since one of my greatest fears is being a burden, I am seldom comfortable taking. Lately though, I have come to realise that taking is also sharing love, allowing someone to return favours or just to express their need to show their love and appreciation.
To give Sir T my love and obedience is my bliss. And now I am enriching it by learning to gratefully accept all that he wants to give me, not just because he tells me I deserve it, but because in my heart I know I am worth it.
Have a lovely week.
